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day twenty. LAST ONE.

2011-12-30T17:39:00.000-08:00

Ok...the LAST picture of my '20 days' that took me exactly a year and 2 days to finish .
I posted the first picture on 29th december year 2010 ... today is 31st december , year 2011 and this is the FINAL one ...

20. a photo of you when you were happy

grey is cranky

2011-12-30T16:59:00.000-08:00

Can grey be good ... or is it just blurred out by a good mood when we have one ?
You hear so much people talking about their moods and the weather .. like the weather has something to do with our moods .... when it's rainy and grey we are cranky and when it's bright and sunny we are happy and funfilled
bad mood , good mood - could it ever be just a little about the weather , or do we just combine weather with mood ?
life is much more complicaed to just say ... grey day makes me cranky .
... if we overall have problems that bring us down , makes us cranky then it's more than obvious , the grey and rainy weather isn't making it better.
Though ofcourse ... in some cases , just the weather can make you cranky.
The weather brings displeasure which leads on to cranky . Simple as that.
It just leads me to wonder... to we make everything so much harder to ourselves , or is it really simple as that ?

I'm just gonna stop right there .... now you can see what I am thinking of at 3:17 am ....
how fun is that . Life's philosophy at THREE AM >__________>
Well , much better than replaying all the shit in my life over and over again . Not that my life is all shit . Just- could always be better .

ttyl,
Ansu.

Day nineteen.

2011-12-04T13:01:00.000-08:00

19. a photo of someone you find attractive

Yep... I really do

Fire and Ice-it is now one.

2011-12-04T12:42:00.001-08:00

Yeah , I know I haven't typed in ages ... sorry about that ! Just have been so busy or tired or just lazy ... Happens to the best of us . Still though , school school school ... what can I say ... it is driving me crazy . So much work and it literally steals my time ... I have only time for school and somehow practice ... Having a personal life , fucks everything up immidiately ... so ... I always have some repearing to do at school . Can't wait till it's all over .
Everything else has been weird and yeah, no words for it ... practice is crazy ... we perform so often so I have been really busy with dancing ...
personal side ... it exists ... It has been great and so much fun but at the same time it just causes a storm in my mind and body and heart ... sometimes I just don't know what to do . Everything has turned so complicated yet so easy . Feels like fire and ice have bonded...and somehow the fire won't melt the ice , ice won't put out the fire . The two extremes that are supposed to be so far from eachother are now so close .

My mind is still an idiot , as usual... I had something, something that was right there , but I didn't want it - now suddenly , I want it so bad , but I should have known , I can't have it anymore.

I keep wishing , hoping , holding on ... but how do I know - am I wishing too much ? ... is there any hope ? ... how long can I hold on ?

I am getting too cheesy , so I will finish now ... I will let you know , what happens , how my life goes :)
Don't forget me , and let's meet again !

~Ansu.

Day eighteen.

2011-09-17T03:38:00.000-07:00

18.a photo of what you ate today.

Küpsisetort (kiivide , banaani ja nektariiniga) ;)

Mushrooming.

2011-09-17T03:20:00.000-07:00

Hey guys .
So I thought it would be good to type again :)
since I am bored .
I didn`t go to practice today ... because someone wouldn´t come ... and Carmen aint there anymore so whats the point of going if it will be boring as hell . thereś nothing to do with Riin and Mae and others ... stella , signe ... some new ones I think ... well , obviously not . Quess I'ma go next time . If I bother .
So I used my morning to clean my laptop and keyboard instead . it took me about 2 hours ... I mean I literally cleaned my laptop like in the washing way . Now its all nice and clean :)
AAND I ate 4 pieces of(cookie)cake ...Z _ Z my breakfast :D and it's not my fault that it was so delicious .

Anyway ... I have no plans for today but me and Hanna were planning to go mushrooming tomorrow . To Riisipere ... So I think we will try to visit Tiiu aswell... if she's even at home Z _ Z
Haven't been to riisipere in years . I think it will be nice to see my chilhood home again :) ... though I will not be able to see my house . Since someone else is living there now ofcourse. Still , I think it will be fun . I havent gone mushrooming in ages aswell so ... forest , here we come . I will finally go somewhere I belong . Crazy woman in the woods (Y)
So yeah , that should be it . Everything else is pretty much school atm . 11th grade seems to be really hard .
See ya later .
~Ansu.

Day seventeen.

2011-08-23T15:09:00.000-07:00

17.A photo of last summer

Ugh ... good times , good times. ;)

Shooting Star

2011-08-23T14:44:00.001-07:00

Haii.
So I wanted to write what just happened.

I was on a window , watching outside , at the stars .
at the same time I was singing

(B.o.B - airplanes)
"Can we pretend that airplanes in the night
sky are like shooting stars

I could really use a wish right now

wish right now , wish right now "

and suddenly a shooting star actually appeared .Is that EPIC or what !?!
A coincidence or not - that is the question !
So yeah , that was that funny/awesome thing .

Stay awesome

~Ansu.

How are you ? - meh , ino you're"good"

2011-08-21T14:22:00.000-07:00

Hello.
I want to talk about the topic...or the question " how are you ?"
We ALL get asked that alot . and probably ask it alot ourselves .
Mainly we ask it out of politeness or for the start of conversation or it's just a habit ..

the question is :

how often do we really ask it out of curiosity of the well being of our friends ....

how often do we wonder how they really are doing ?

The conversation usually goes like :
-hey , how are you ?
-hey , I'm good . you ?
-yeah , I'm good aswell
and then it usually goes on to another topic
but really , theres probably alot more behind it then just "good" .
It can be :
*My life is SO awesome ... you have no ideas how much I have to tell you , theres so much happened . - thats when you probably do talk about how are you doing and stuff.
*My life is pretty much the same as always , nothing interesting happened , same old same old . - in that case you either talk or just go with the routine of " yeah , I'm good"
*There are problems , Iwill handle them ... nothing unbearable. - usually answer with "yeah, I'm good" (ors.)

*My life is falling apart . I'm a mess ... everything is just awful . - Mostly say you're good and move on ( unless it is someone really close to you , who you talk to about those things )
I just want to say that maybe sometimes we should think about it ,before we ask or answer to it ...
do we really ask it because we want to know , how the person is doing ...
do we pick the easy way to answer instead of answering how we really are doing .
I know that most of the time I pick the easy way ... just answer..yeah ,I'm great ...

Tonight I got asked , how I was and I did pick the easy way .
But now I will (shortly ) tell how I really feel , cause it's at least good to get it all off your chest and say it out loud / write it down , how you really are doing .
So , my life is a little complicated at the moment . There are problems and alot of negativity around me .
My friendship with few very important friends of mine is on the edge of falling apart again.

There is a person ( I deeply care about ) who is ignoring me and everything connected to me (accept fb and one other page ).
Days pass by and I don't have anything to do ... literally .
School is VERY close ( I don't even want to think about it )
My health is messing around - I now possibly have somekind of allergy .
And my parents are always fighting - arquing , not talking , one of them being kicked out - but then come back .
Yeah , complicated but my life will go on , either the way towards positivity or negativity . All for my life to decide !
So yeah , thats how I'm REALLY doing . Don't be afraid to tell how you really are doing :)
Thank you for my attention and how ever you are doing , I hope you're good and hang in there :)
Your
~Anzu.

Day sixteen.

2011-08-14T15:55:00.000-07:00

16. a photo of a night you loved

Well , how can I forget my fake getting married night :D
Gotta love it right HAHA :)

Sex movies and- tv shows ?!?

2011-08-14T15:30:00.000-07:00

Haii
Well , yet again , long time no see ...by that I mean , long time no sharin' my life on my blog.
Though I really don't have anything special to type about , so , it's totally fine :)
This summer-lets just say , wasn't really interesting for me .
Had alot of boring stuff and too much free time - which I had nothing to do with -_-
Fustrating really ! And still , Pedase trip was the most interesting thing this summer for me . I've had alot of fun but still it has been really boring . And the weather has really been a Bitch this year . It was warm for such a small amount of time . I just wish it was alot warmer . I only got to the beach 3 times this years and 2 of those times were at Pedase. I really feel like swimming - I am like a dolphine on that part . I just enjoy all the swimming , water , having fun in it ...ugh , now I really want to swim.
Also I am surrounded with new couples , marriages and akward sex movies and shows on tv - like ...
What the hell is up with that ? ...since when did porn and sex become so famous on tv again .
It really seems that the year 2011 is the year of love ....mostly the summer part . Well ...good luck guys >_>
Scool is gonna start again soon - really not looking forward to that .

I DO NOT WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL .

Even the slightest thoughts of it brings up all the negative ideas !!!! I am not ready to go back !
my life - not so bubbly nor flowery /though I wish it was ! . !
Well ... I guess that's it , I think .
There's another topic I'd wanna share but since nobody is really familiar with it, then I am not going to bring it up .
Ya all enjoy the little time you have left before school and I hope you have fun :)
Best wishes
~Ansu :)

Day Fifteen.

2011-07-07T17:44:00.000-07:00

15. a photo of you that your hair looks nice in

Hahahahah , itś BARBARA (Y) itś not so much "nice hair" but it has a deeper meaning in it :) Who knows, knows :)

Motorcycles and Kayaks :* (L)

2011-07-07T16:57:00.000-07:00

Ohaii ...

Long time , no see ....
actually ...Long time , no write...but ok :D

So , you all know and probably enjoy the summer break :) Itś been SOOO fun !
The funest "event" I had was the lighthouse childrens camp which I was a translator in . The team from the states were just awesome . They were the next most awesome team since 2005!
I love them alot , and already miss them ! Can´t wait for the next summer . only 35o something days more :)
Well anyways... the most awesome thing we did there were
1.

Riding motorcycles !
Wow ... this was just awesome .! did that for a third year now . gosh .... I can´t explain . The speed ... I totally got drunk from it so I was SOOOO exited :) and I saw Maks aswell :) He has been a how do you say " hunka hunka " for all those years and he still hasn´t lost it :) + he was the fastest driver there so it was a double plus for him :) even got pictures with him :) My own personal "wanna-take-pics-with-him" guy :)
2.Kayaking
OH MY GOD ... Man that was awesome .! Kayaking is so cool .... totally in my favorite "to do list " :) I wish I could do it again ! I will , definately :) Just....ooooh gosh , itś even so awesome to remember the feeling :)
So yeah , it was overall really amazing ! riding motorcycles , swimming , kayaking , crafts , communicating , just chillin´around and everything !!!!!! I wan´t it all back :)
We made our own scrapbooks too ... now I kinda carry it everywhere I go , even though itś half empty , but I can always look at it or add something to it :) Itś a great memory left from that week !
Btw.... We were in Pedase hotel ... which is 60 km from Tallinn I think !
And , the funniest thing is that we had those room keys that were attached to those gigantic metal key holder thingys and I STILL managed to take it with me :D so tomorrow I´m going to drop it off to the mailbox of the office of the pedase hotel ... so I don´t have to look anybody in the eye :) thatś good HAHA :D
But yeah ... Ima go for now :) Nice blogging again ;) will do it again soon !
Love you all alot ! Stay close and don´t go stranger on me :)

ttyl
~Ansu

Day fourteen.

2011-06-18T17:43:00.000-07:00

14. a photo of your town

'poetry cafe'

2011-05-15T04:07:00.000-07:00

Ok ... I cannot let eurovision topic pass .
As you all know , Getter was the one that represented Estonia in Germany (Düsseldorf ) with the song rockefeller street .
Estonian hopes were very high . Some said ( alot ppl actually) that we will even win it and we will be the next country to organize it . Others said that we will be in the place between 4-7 and only very few predicted a lower place . I was the one predicting a lower place . Well there we go ppl . We vere in the SECOND PLACE ..... counting from the ending (24th from 25). Yaay . lets just say ... Told ya so ! C'mon ppl . did you rly think Getter could win it O.o That is sooo ....yeeeah . Anyway , we got points from 1O countrys out of 43 (the most was 7 points and got from 3 countrys ) . And got together something over 40 points. So yeah , pretty sad ! Even 'Moldova' got more points then us . yeash .... sad , just saaaad . Thats all I can say . ( we still got through semi final so thats maybe something )
On tuesday at 14.00 I need to perform on 'poetry cafe' with that poem " rahas peitub õnn " ( happyness lies in money) . I no want to D: Bad...just BAD . If I fail ( which I probably will ) then I don't know what the hell to do . I will probably be nervous and stast shaking and going to read too fast ect..Let's just hope for that not to happen . Just keep your thumbs up for me and maybe everything will go well .
But yeah... that's mostly all for now .
ttyl

~Ansu.

Money, Money, Money - We need it !

2011-05-04T13:18:00.000-07:00

Heeeyy again guys ;)
It's fun to read and learn poems. Since you all know I write some myself , though I suck at it :/ But it's ok though ;) I don't care , as long as I like what I write and as long as I have some inspiration .Writing poems is a good pasttime for me , just like drawing , dancing in my room by myself or singing in the shower :D But dancing is the most favourite of the pasttime stuff i do or have ...It's my passion , though i'm not so good at that eighter .
Anyway... there's a poem I have to learn by heart for tomorrow ....a school project . I almost know it , but need to repeat it over and over again .And you can have a peek at the "poem" I'm gonna read:

Rahas peitub õnn
Toomas Liiv

Tunnistada ,et rahas peitub õnn, on raske.
Ent peab vabanema oma kidunevast positiivsusest,
tuleb lahti saada võltshäbist rikkuse
ees. Väidate , et on olemas mingi õlised

väärtused, mida raha eest osta ei saa ?
Keda te sellega petate ? Vaadake mind! Noh!
Endal teil ju silmad kilavad peas , nii kui
ainult minu rahakotti näete! Ise korjate

kah kodus suksasäärde! Aga nii kui avalikkuse
ette saate , ütlete kohe : " ei raha nüüd
küll siin elus kõige tähtsam ole."Aga miks
te siis sukasäärde kogute ? Pidage meeles,

et igasugustest eetilistest komplesidest
on ausus kõige olulisem. See tähendab , et
kui keegi ikka südames raha ja rikkust
himustab, siis öelgu seda alati ka kõva

häälega välja. Ausus on see , mis teeb inimese
inimeseks(homo sapiens).Ent õnnelikuks
teeb inimese loomulikult ainult raha.
Noh , sülitage nüüd mu peale! Selle eest ,

et ma raha jumaldan ! Te ei sülita ? Teis
on ikka säilinud kübekene ausust! Te pole
veel täieliult loomastunud?

~*~

Yeah , that's what it is , and I love it :D it's really fun , and I kinda think the same .... not literally , but money is something we need , and I believe it can make you happy ... not completely , but it helps ALOT !
Oh , and me and two really good friends of mine have been riding our bikes...in the woods and near the sea....love the trails that are in the woods....not extreme, but some parts are pretty awesome and close to extreme .
Hope to go riding soon again , can't wait, so fun ;:) Can't wait for the summer to begin...the warmth , sun , swimming , thin clothes , hot guys walking around , laying on the beach , sunbathing, basketball , volleyball and all the other awesome stuff ---gaah , heaven for me ! I want ! Badly :)
And I hope I can somehow get a job for the summer ... I need my money people :D Especially when it's summer. Need new clothes and ice cream and drinks - alcohol and non-alcohol aswell ....as you all know , we drink alot when it's hot :) But yeah...that's mostly all whats in my head at the moment .

Again , need to repeat myself about not blogging ... still busy with school and friends and I motly forget aswell . But I wont stop blogging , just sometimes i forger or I dont have time to blog , so be patient ;)
But till I blog again , have a nice time , hope the warm weather is coming back , since it pisses everybody off that it was so nice and warm and now its cold as hell again . But yeah , have fun with your friends outside and go crazy I tell you :) It's really fun!!

See you

~Ansu

day thirteen.

2011-05-04T13:15:00.000-07:00

13. a photo of you standing up

Face is bad :/

Day twelve.

2011-04-19T11:52:00.000-07:00

12. a photo of you and someone you love

Me and my best friend forever who I love and absolutely ADORE...-...Dancing :3

Hehe...ok ok , I luv Lissu aswell :3

Fur : not hetero --- bi !

2011-04-19T11:26:00.001-07:00

Oh hlo...
Yet again I havent had the time to blog for some time , but ya know, im trying my best ....
School is just crazy ...so much going on out there and Kim ....well yeah , shes unbelievable - skipping school like a maniac , but well , her grades are ok so I think she'll be just fine . But me ... I think i'll be fine aswell , just gotta work hard . The hardest thing ofc is that im lazy as hell ... aren't we all eeeh ;) but ye , I think i'd be better if i werent so lazy. So far everything seems to go well .... at least normal , though it could always be better ! but im not complaining . (YET)
And for my transition exam I decided to go with German. Its a little risky but im gonna trust myself and I hope I wont fail - the test nor myself !
Guess what I found out .... Fur's fucking BI .... Had no ideas ...srsly .... didnt expect it at all . And I thought I can read ppl well ... well , so much about that -_-I never thought of him as bi...always thought of him as hetero sexual but now that I think of it ...It makes sence....that just explains so much....believe me .... explains ALOT e.e
Hahaha...Im annoyed over myself watching something annoying ...
I watched "annoying orange" with some friends of mine and now Im totally obsessed with that orange...its just so funny :) i keep watching the episodes over and over again .
"Trick or treat, I have no feet , but if I did , that would be neat" Hahaha. ye ....classic :3
Ok ,ok im not gonna annoy you again with my far too long text but I promise to write again or be active here more often :)
Till then , take care and i'll

ttyl

~Ansu

Juicy Sweden.

2011-03-01T06:27:00.000-08:00

Ok ... so finally I'm gonna talk a little about my trip to Sweden .

Well for starters I'm gonna say ... IT WAS REALLY FUN !

We moved out on wednesday at 6 pm .
We spent the night on the ship - partying .

In the morning , well a bit later than morning - 10 am wo got off the ship and walked to town . It was only like 3 km and I'm not sure if it was even that much so it was kinda cool .
We went into an art museum . It was pretty big so it took a while to go through all the rooms ... which few of us didnt cuz we didnt have enough time .

After that it was basically free time so we all split up and went shopping . Didn't buy anything interesting but it was still fun to just look around . ( Btw... I was looking for some salad to buy-but I didn't find any )

And after that we got back on the ship to go home . Again we were on the ship throughout the night - again partying .

The most fun ofcourse was on the ship ( no doubt about that ) and I really want to go back again ...
though next time I hope to go at a warmer time cuz it was the 3rd time I went there and its always been cold .

And that was about it ... going to save you from the juicy details ;)

ttyl

~Ansu

Day eleven.

2011-02-28T12:36:00.001-08:00

11. a photo of your friend(s)

Oh god , all the fun we've had <3 I want it all back (L)

day ten.

2011-02-09T10:35:00.000-08:00

10. a photo of you

this is the emo me >_>

Day nine

2011-01-26T12:59:00.001-08:00

9. a photo of your favourite film(s)

Thats how u deal with horny perverts ^^

2011-01-26T12:04:00.000-08:00

drknightking (9:30:17 PM): hey
badredchilly (9:38:59 PM): hey
drknightking (9:39:31 PM): sup
badredchilly (9:39:59 PM): nm
badredchilly (9:40:02 PM): sup with u ?
drknightking (9:40:19 PM): my cocks hard
badredchilly (9:53:15 PM): good 4 u
drknightking (9:53:51 PM): wanna help me
badredchilly (9:55:18 PM): with what ?
drknightking (9:55:56 PM): my cock
badredchilly (9:57:08 PM): and how exactly do u imagine me helping u with it ?
drknightking (9:57:50 PM): telling me about your pretty toes
badredchilly (9:58:01 PM): o.O
drknightking (9:58:13 PM): and your cute feet
badredchilly (9:58:26 PM): and what do you want to know about my feet ?
drknightking (9:59:01 PM): everythingg
drknightking (9:59:32 PM): size smell are they soft? wat color you painted them jus stufff
badredchilly (10:00:50 PM): i have troll feet , green , smell like rotten eggs and theyr covered with corns . i painted them that pukey colour ... that greenish
drknightking (10:01:20 PM): ?
badredchilly (10:02:17 PM): yea...im a troll .... and ima eat u .... wanna suck my cock motherfucker ?
badredchilly (10:03:38 PM): ahhhw no answer ? damn .... and i was expecting a blow job

the most amusing conv for me . xD

R.I.P My dear cousin (W)

2011-01-24T13:10:00.000-08:00

I just found out , that my cousin passed away yesterday O.O
He was only 32 years old .
I dont know what to say ...

R.I.P my dear cousin <3 (W)

You'll be loved and remebered !

I LOVE YOU !

I dont know if afterlife exists , but if it does ,or anything similar to that, ill meet you there when my time comes !

I'd like to tribute this week to honour and remember him !

If you remember him , Madis Malk-fantastic host and entertainer , raise a glass , to honour him !

"In the end of the world , theres a coffee shop , where we will meet again ! " ~Friends of Madis .

(W)

day eight

2011-01-20T14:49:00.000-08:00

8. a photo of you favourite band/musician

day seven

2011-01-20T13:36:00.000-08:00

7. a photo of someone you love

negro balls

2011-01-11T11:17:00.000-08:00

Day six

2011-01-08T18:24:00.000-08:00

6. a photo that makes you laugh

day five

2011-01-03T20:30:00.000-08:00

. A photo of yourself

day four

2011-01-02T13:31:00.000-08:00

4. a photo of the last place you went on holiday

I was travelling around estonia with my family
summer 2010

dreams can hurt

2011-01-02T12:04:00.000-08:00

So i had this dream today :

I saw that I went to a party and I was catering and stuff like that - then suddenly, my clothes somehow got on fire and I tried to put the fire out, other people like paniced around me and tried to help but they didnt help at all so like when I was finally able to put the fire out I started crying ...

...and I woke up - my eyes wet .

It was the first time...
....in 10 years - truly reminded .
Life wont let you forget !! Need to remember the feeling ... the heat .. the pain and the panic in which I drowned .

The things that can help to forget ... for a while... are friends, having fun and enjoy living...as much as possible .

" terrified to remember , forbidden to forget "

~Ansu

day three

2011-01-01T14:34:00.000-08:00

3-A picture that make you happy

day two.

2010-12-31T18:38:00.000-08:00

2. A photo of yourself a year ago.

compliment ^^

2010-12-30T20:55:00.000-08:00

Hey guys

i was just told that im the most awesome internet chick that this person has met 4 a while ;)
it made my day.. night ;)

so.. u guys re the awesomest blog readers ;) there u go !!

that would be all ;) its 07:20 am soon i need to go to bed o.O

ttyl
~Ansu

creative nights ;)

2010-12-29T19:47:00.000-08:00

okay its night time and ofcourse
IM NOT ASLEEP !!!
stupidity**thats all i have to say about it ;)
but since im up AGAIN and bored AGAIN
i wrote a poem AGAIN ;)

time to make things right

soon becomes the time to find
the stuff i once left behind
to fix all mistakes ive made
and make up the price i havent payed

cause once i decide to open my eyes
and admit all those stupid lies
i have to try to make things right
even if myself i have to fight

:) yaay !
im sooooo creative at nights ;) thats a good reason enough to stay up all night !!!!

right now its six minutes till six am
morning time
wich means ___ bed time for mee ;)

so im going to bed__ soon ;)
ttyl

~ansu

number one !

2010-12-29T14:56:00.001-08:00

1. Your facebook profile photo

Photo time!

2010-12-29T14:51:00.000-08:00

Heyhey !
thought to copy keit with her " idea" ors
Because _ i think its awesome thing !! ;)

20 days

1. Your facebook profile photo
2. a photo of yourself a year ago
3. a photo that makes you happy
4. a photo of the last place you went on holiday
5. a photo of you
6. a photo that makes you laugh
7. a photo of someone you love
8. a photo of you favourite band/musician
9. a photo of your favourite film(s)
10. a photo of you
11. a photo of your friend(s)
12. a photo of you and someone you love
13. a photo of you standing up
14. a photo of your town
15. a photo of you that your hair looks nice in
16. a photo of a night you loved
17. a photo of last summer
18. a photo of what you ate today
19. a photo of someone you find attractive
20. a photo of you when you were happy

i hope keit dont mind ;);)

sleepless !

2010-12-27T18:21:00.000-08:00

It's 04:59am and i can't sleep ! Im soooo bored ! Killing time by watching videos , drinking tea and listening to some music .
It's kinda fun ... the night , darkness ! It's snowing and it's pretty- - -really pretty :):)
ooh.. i have an idea...i'm gonna write a poem :) yaay !

*Snowy street

outside - all i see is a snowy street,
window is open and i have cold feet .
I watch the snow falling and falling
and some old lady to home is crawling .

the wind - still really hardly blowing
And i hope till mornin' it won't stop snowing .
then in the mornin' the first thing i greet
is a white and lovely-snowy street.

~*~

LOL i am full of thoughts this night ;)
i have really found out that i like to write poems , and i hope i'm not very bad at it :)
but okay ... gonna make another cup of tea and watch some videos by Shane Dawson ;) Love that guy !! Hilarious !!!! can't stop laughing !

okay see ya (L)
addition: i got to bed at 08:03am
~Ansu !

Christmas !

2010-12-27T18:06:00.001-08:00

Well at first... Merry Christmas everybody !
my christmas was kinda the usual... few gifts , family meal and few drinks ! ;)
but it was fun !! :)
I haven't blogged in a while , just busy times :)
but ..
i had a performance too:)
Desiree x-mas 2010

kinda had it off a bit but that's ok ! :)
it was still good :)
hated the dresses still !!!! I literally looked like an "umpa-lumpa"
but fortunately I carried it off :) soo... that's good :)
but yeah :) Merry x-mas ... and if i'm not back .. Happy new year of 2011 :)

And don't hate Euro :) it's like every money , just different numbers and looks :)

Bye !
Luv ya all !

~Ansu !

poem freak

2010-09-17T01:02:00.000-07:00

Hey :)

Not been blogging for a while :P
actually cause theres nothing to blog :D my life is same old_same old:)
but i have been pretty bored at school and in my classes so i wrote " poems XD
theyr pretty funny and i had fun while writing them so :)

*nonsense

Sometimes i wonder"who am I "
You ask the same so it`s a tie
maybe we all have cancer
No thats not the answer
But if I am a love arrow
then i`m the one you can not follow
I know you`re amazed about the speed
so it feels like you`ve been smoking weed
actually that poem`s not about drugs
if anything_then rather hugs
I should end this poem now
but if i do please tell me how !

*hit the doc

They told me i`d be fucking well
but why then I feel like a freaking hell ?
those pills_they did``nt help a shit
and now I need someone to hit
for a sec it popped to my head oh wow
I need to see those doctors now
now I know who to punch
and where to get the money for lunch
from pocket i take out my fist
and twenty times that hand I twist
I hit those doctors really hard
and after me is now the quard
I jump and vanish into thin air
the quard stops and begins to stare !

~anett torri ;);)

yeah so thats it : hope you like like :D:D
(sorry no pic this time)

but see ya !

~Ansu !

2010-08-18T02:36:00.000-07:00

Oohhh_
Monday was awesome !First it was my best friends birthday :) we spent it togethaaaaa;) and i got to go dancing :) omg __it was SO much fun ! i got to see monsa and carru (L) half of the practise we just laughed and fooled around :) i had a blast =) TRULY !!!!
yesterday we just hung around ^^
today is another dance practise and we`re gonna be dancing broadway :) i can`t wait !!!!
but okay talk to ya later ;)
I am looking forward seeing carru and monsa today :) (picture)
~Ansu

Is it really over ?

2010-08-15T13:45:00.000-07:00

Is it really over ? but it can´t be !
it really hit me today . It´s only two weeks and summer break will be over . Everybody will go back to school . And so will our class. or should i say former class ? we are all going back to school ... different schools.
we have all split up . there is no more our class... no more beavers!
we won´t sit in the hallway and talk , we won´t mingle in the class and we won´t go shopping for candy and food at recess .
It feels weird. I am still going to school but i won´t see them ... those funny girls and silly boys.
I didn´t think i´d feel that way but i actually am gonna miss those silly, bitchy -freaks .
WEIRD WEIRD WEIRD . that´s all i´ve got to say !

~Ansu.

my family is everything to me

2010-08-15T06:37:00.000-07:00

Hey again ! I wanted to dedicate something to my family but i didn´t know what so i remembered my blog ... this is the place i can write something , where i can share everything i want to say .

First 1. Mommy.

I love you mom!
You raised me up . you took care of me . you helped me when i needed it . you taught me everything i know. you are everything i am ! And i can´t love you enouch .
i´m sorry for all the pain and hard time i have caused you but i know we have had a lot of happy and fun times !

Second 2. MY BROS

I love you guys !

I know we have had a lot of fights and i know i have promised to kill you ( several times ) LOL. and wished that you weren´t my brothers but you know thats a lie ! you are the best brothers i could ask for ! you have standed for me when i have needed it ! you have encouraged me when i have felt useless or when i tought i suck at everything and you have listened all of the crap i have had to say ! THANK YOU SO SO MUCH !!

Third 3. DADDY

I know we´ve had a lot of differences . you haven´t been around the times i needed it the most . you haven´t called to say happy birthday or asked me how am i doing but we´ve had some good times too . when i was little i spent time with you at your house and you took care of me and made sure that i was okay . I still love no matter what ! you are one of two reasons i even exist ! i want you to know that i truly love you !!!!!!!!!

THANK YOU ! You still are the best family for me and i can´t ask for a different one . I DON´´T WANT DIFFERENT FAMILY ! well okay maybe for a little baby sister ;) but no no ... you were ... are .. and will be my numer one ppl in my life !!!

I LOVE YOU GUYS !!!!!!!

Free lunch day

2010-08-14T14:30:00.000-07:00

i´d like to give a teddybear to Mariie ;) I <3>

hey ya all again :)

So i got a chance to write again :) amazing .
Well ... so others who worked with me got their money but as usual i didn´t HAHA . It´s probably because of the banks ... but i´m hoping to get mine on monday .
Funny thing happened today LOL . Me and eliise went to hesburger and bought two hamburgers ;) then we payed for them and after we had turned our backs at them a man said " don´t you want a refund? " we were like ... sure haha . so somebody can count that as stealing and some other person would have said that " hey .. we payed the right money " but hey i think it´s hes fault ;) so who told you there was no free lunch ;) I am feeling kinda quilty but hey it was hell of a good FREE hamburger ;)

yeah so thats all folks :D
ttyl

~Ansu.

Heoo all .

2010-08-13T10:29:00.000-07:00

today i´d love to see Keit !! miss you dear ..

heooooo buddies ;)

Well it´s my another blogging day cause it´s been a while again ;)
so uhm...what should i tell ?
okay ... well i´m missing my friends one of the most important day in a year LOL . what a bastard right . i know i know ... that happens when you build your ego up too high . so ya all listen to me when i say " don´t build your ego too high or it´ll fall and smash you like a bug " ./ ooh...that was soo deep Anett Sooooo deep/ LMAO.
I am soo waiting for monday cause then my dancing practice is making a little " camp" but just few hours in a day . the days are :
16.august when we´re dancing Jazz
18.august when we´re dancing Broadway
23.august when we´re dancing Latino Hop
25.august when we´re Krumping

i can´t wait !!!! Dancing IS my life and i dont know where i would be right now without it !!/deeep/ LOL
oh and i am STILL waiting for my moneyyy that i earned like two or three weeks ago .. goosh just give me a break . i wanna go shopping !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now i´m trying to find a day to wear my graduation dress or it´ll be kinda like "waisted" cause i really wanna wear it somewhere else than my graduation but it seems that that´s not gonna happen . but what can u do huh LOL .
okay i´m gonna wrap it up here so talk to you soon .
Have fun and enjoy the heat :)

~Ansu.

Sup !

2010-08-03T13:48:00.000-07:00

Sup gangstasss !!

so i told you i can´t write every day cause my comp. broke and now i heard that it can´t be fixed so i have to buy a new computer (wish i had that money....daah) but i promised to blog once in a while ;)
Sooooo... i haven´t been up to anything interesting lately but a week ago i got to go on a tour in prison "patarei" nand it was soooo freaking awesome ... and i´m so so so happy i got that chance ;) and i finished my summer job in malev four days ago and now i can´t wait to get my money (i kinda have spent it all in my head already ..deeheee ) so yeah ... something to wait for YAY !!
and that´s about alll " interesting " stuff haha lol.
OH yeah ... one more thing . i got a new kitty-cat and she´s sooo cuteee .. her name is dolce-mia ... well we mostly call her mia but i just had to put that "dolce" in front :D she has cute brown eyes and she is brown-white-black patchy ;)
well now that´s it ... LOL .
so i quess i´ll talk to ya all later but till then take care all of you okay :)(oh and i´m so sorry that i didn´t put a photo of somebody on top of my story but it´s just that this computer just doesn´t let me ... and to be honoust i´m pissed ! it´s so unfair but i promise to put a picture definately next time ! )

~Ansu.

heey :D

2010-07-24T08:17:00.000-07:00

today i hugged eliise ;)

so hey guys ... i´m so sorry i haven´t blogged but my comp. broke so i wasnt able to blog :S and i dont know how long it´s gonna be broken so i am sorry if i cant write every day :)
but my week in malev turned out quite ok ;) it was kinda easy working there ;) we had lots of breaks and easy jobs but i dont know about next week thats coming up but i seriously hope it´s goging to be easy as that week was ;) oh and we went to shooting-gallery and actually got to shoot with a real gun and it was awesome ;) ( gun was GSG5) and thats almost all i did this week .... worked , had fun , hanged out with my buddies etc... haha . but yeah i hope i can blog soon again but till then ya all take care alright ;)

~Ansu

BORING :)

2010-07-18T06:48:00.000-07:00

everybody read my blog my fascinating life even i´m older than jodelle ferland -.- that biatchh !!! says:
i know that my boringnes is funny lets all lol and rofl and lmao
Keit says:
ähhhhhh
cheer up!
everybody read my blog my fascinating life even i´m older than jodelle ferland -.- that biatchh !!! says:
i am cheerful i like my boringnes thats why im interesting --- cause im boring
Keit says:
okay then .. thats that ;) !
everybody read my blog my fascinating life even i´m older than jodelle ferland -.- that biatchh !!! says :
^.^

srry keit but i just had to blog it ;) it was funny ;)

Sunday fun ...ask Shane :D LOL

2010-07-18T05:15:00.000-07:00

today i thought about fun times i´ve had with julia
hey guys .
so today i thought about a cool idea that every day that i blog i´ll but up a picture of somebody and write under it that " today i love/miss/lauch with etc. ____ and that persons name " and i think it´s really cool idea and you know that somebody always thinks about you !! i hope you like that idea but if you´re against that idea let me know and i´ll stop doing that but now to my day...
so today it was raining and i loved it . i was going to the store and it was raining and when i came back it was still raining and i said myself that rain is like my faithful friend that always sticks on my side ;) yay right ! no really i just LOOVE rain ;)
so after that i watched shane dawsons videos and i was lauching really loud cause he´s so fking funny :D no really he is ... he does jokes that really make me lauch LOL . go watch and you´ll know ;) the best are "Ask Shane " haha . he like put on a teletubbie costume ( tinki winkie or something ) and he looked hilarious ! LOL ..and his dogs were afraid or his costume ;)
but yeah and now i´m "surfing" the internet and just thought i should blog about my amusing day LOL .. but i´ll blog today again if something interesting happens but if doesn´t i´ll still blog tomorrow ;) oh and btw i´m going to work tomorrow in malev... if you don´t know what that is then .... oh what the heck ill tell you ;) it´s somekind of an assocation or something that lets scool youth to work in the summer like take a summer job to get some money or something and it´s really interesting too cause we kinda like help ( for money ofcourse ) to clean estonia and lots stuff like that so yeah now you know right ;) ( wink ) :D okay now i´m babbling too much right so okay bye and ttyl :) ( talk to you later )

~Ansu .

" forbidden to remember ... terrified to forget ! "

2010-07-17T09:25:00.000-07:00

I am Back !!!

2010-07-17T08:55:00.001-07:00

hi guys !
i am back & starting my blog over & in english so others can catch up with my life ( or something like that ) too ;) yay !!! isn´t that great or what LOL ...
so today i returned from my trip and it was AWESOME. i had so much fun but now i´m back in my ordinary life and already got few probs .
YEAHHH ofcourse that particular problem i have ( again ) is really silly but what can i do ? its just who i am so... LOL .
but it´s fine though ... everybody kinda knows me so yeah HAHA ... but i really missed home but now that i´m here again i´ve got nothing to do ... ( and it´s kinda involved with my " prob. ") so i decided to start or whatever i can call it my blog all over again ..
today was pretty awesome too ( accept the prob. ) YAY.. :D i kinda learned how to drive ;) my mom was freaking out __ she kinda feared i would crash her car LOL ^^ but i managed ;) i had few mistakes ofcourse( cause it kinda was my first time do drive ) but i still think it was GREAT ! so i hope i can do that again some day ( dah ofcourse i will ) !!!!
but okay for now ... i´ll talk to you again in some short notice .

~Ansu

Sauu :)

2009-02-26T11:50:00.000-08:00

leidsin oma tehtud laulu :) muidugi ilma muusikatta :D
mõtlesin siis teiega jagada :)

I´LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU !

love can be so cruel
but sometimes itś just so real ,
so good and you forget ...
...forget about me !
i was your love , your life ...
but now ...i´m just one old
one really old memory .

REF:
you found new love
and forgot about me .
but know...i will always love you .
please honey..please come back to me .

i wont bother you
i wont ask anything from you
but remember ... you will always ...
always stay into my heart

Ref
------

baby dont you understand ?
you crushed my heart
but i´ll always hope you´ll be happy ...
happy eaven without me .
im so sorry that i waste your ime
but...i cant force my heart
that says " I LOVE YOU"

Ja ongi kõik :D ei ole hea eriti :D tean ... aga noh hakkab tulema :D
hääd päeva teile muksud xD :)

miks ?? :'(

2009-01-26T08:03:00.000-08:00

Elu on liiga ebaõiglane ! Miks surevad toredad inimesed siis kui pole neile see aeg??miks noored ? Miks just meie tuttavad ?? Kas sellele küsimusele on üldse vastust ? Ma ei usu, aga võibolla saab see selgeks kui ise hakkad surema ... Kõige jubedamad on inimesed kes ei mõista! Nad räägivad vastikult jubedaid asju... Kas nad siis ei mõtle meie - kadunute tuttavate- peale ? Kas nad siis ei mõista ?? See kes ei mõista loodan , et hakkab ilma, et peaks seda läbi elama .. See on väga kurb...Justkui oleks tükk inimesest kadunud... Teiste inimeste surm -Enda tuttava- ei ole kellelegi kerge... Kõik elavad kaotust erinevalt üle !
Minu jaoks on Liisi ja Jürgeni surm lihtsalt jube , katastroofiline ja väga valus ...
igatsen teid Jürgen ja Liis !!!!!!!

ni nii :D kirjutamist siis xD

2009-01-25T03:03:00.000-08:00

Sauuuuu.

No mis siis kirjutada ?? Ega palju ju polegi :D elu kulgeb p2ris h2sti :) koolis on head hinded ( suht ) :D veebruar tuleb ikka p2ris lahe :) 7 veebruar l2hen l2tti :D jurmalasse ^^ yay .. siis 18 veebruar l2hen klassiga rootsi ^^ see saab vinge olema :) kajutis siis birxi , keiti ja katriiniga :) hea rahulik seltskond :) ja siis 20 veebruari 6htul siis KNL-i laagrisse :) tegemist ikka on :) aga ongi hea vaheldus mu elule :) jahm ... mis siis olen kaa teinud ... :/ noh k2isime klassiga (osadega) teatris :)(arusaamatu oli :D) noh peale seda k2isime boheemis söömas :) n2mma toit on seal ! t2na 2rkasin peaaegu kell 1 sest eile olin kella neljani orksis :) lahe oli xD BuddyPoke ^^ ja tesed asjad kaa :D jahm .. nii siis minu elu siin veereb ... armsalt ja vaikselt :D...
Sauuuuuuuu..........
T2hhhh lugemast (K)(L)(K)(L)(L)(K)(K)

>.<

2008-12-31T08:12:00.000-08:00

nii nii nii :) kohe kohe varsti uus aasta :) loeme tunde :) veel on jäänud 5 tundi ja 46 mintsa :) juhuu :) uusaasta peab tulema parem xD vb ka mitte :D:D:D
tglt niisama kriban :) igav onn !!!
ootan ema :) loodan et toob nats nänni :D
närvivapustus xD all my Fxcing life xD
ill poke mannus eyes out in few minutes xD i bet she will run :D:D
she really needs too :D
oujee sain oma ameerika paki :) nii palju ameerika nänni :) juhhuuu . nämmi nämmi nämmi :)
pakaa siis :)

2008-12-30T14:43:00.000-08:00

2008-12-30T14:36:00.000-08:00

igav mina xD

2008-12-30T09:38:00.001-08:00

homme siis vanaaasta õhtu xD
minul üksikul hingel muidugi pole midagi plaanis :S
arvatavasti võtan uue aasta mannuga vastu xD
täna kah olen terve päeva maha maganud xD koguaeg voodis passinud ja telekat vaadand :D
nu jh vahepeal kah joonistanud xD
mitte midagi nagu ei viitsi teha heh :D
nu aga millalgi peab hakkama ju tegutsema :) täna või homme siis võtan oma toa ette :P
uus aasta ju väärib korras tuba xD
no igastahes muud pole praegu öelda hihiii :D
sauks siis jälle :)

naljakas :P

2008-12-30T02:59:00.000-08:00

Hei :)
nii imelik !
praegu on vaheaja teine nädal :P
teisel nädalal olen koguaeg maganud mingi poole üheni või isegi kella ühest üle :P pool päeva maganud maha :P
võibolla lõpuks puhkan kaa ennast välja :)
tore ju oleks ! võiks ikka kooli alguseks täiesti värske olla :)
tglt eriti kooli ei oota sest seal niiguinii tulevad halvad ajad :S
esimene vaheaja nädalal tõusin normaalsel ajal xD
tglt isegi päris hea on tõusta :) pea on suht selge :) tglt selles on ma arvan süüdi et ma olen pool ööd üleval :)
kuid võibolla ka mitte sest olen enne kaa olnudd niimodi (koguaeg isegi) ja siis ärkan õigel ajal...
noh igastahes ma pean siis varem magama minema sest kooliajal ju peab juba ennast kell 7 üles ajama :S
okei sau siis :)

2008-12-29T14:51:00.000-08:00

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